What about this 4th quarter?

I’m sure some of you will be asking ….”What on earth is this 4th quarter question about? Then again, some of you will immediately understand because you’re there right along with me. From my perspective it’s simply about the “perception” of the number of years I’ve remained somewhat intact – emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually.

To me the 4th quarter represents the last and final quarter of being here in the human-suit (kinda like football unless we get an overtime….oh oh…I may have to give that idea additional thought LOL).  I have no idea how much longer the universe may deem it appropriate for me to stay here in this ‘earth-school’ but I’m ready to begin a new approach. One that explores options to dismantle all the old BS (Belief Systems….thank you Suzanne Giesemann) and considers creating some new ones.

Anyone care to join me? Ha….you’re saying…good luck.

When I entered this fourth quarter I probably would have agreed with that “Ha…good luck” statement. Today not quite so much and here’s why – at least in part.

On October 29, 2018, on our 34th wedding anniversary, my husband / best friend / soul mate / confidante transitioned out of this ‘earth-school’. What he may be up to now,  in whatever realm he ended up in, is somewhat of a mystery – AND – I have absolutely no doubt that his infectious smile, laugh and good humour is still serving him well.

What was then waiting for me was a bucketful of experiences I could never have imagined. The first real cognizant realization was that without Don I had absolutely no idea who I was, who I had been, who I might become and whether or not I even wanted to stay long enough to try and figure it out.

That’s where the original question popped up and the result has been an exploration of many esoteric and perhaps mystical ideas. Ideas that led to a recognition of how multiple opportunities have arrived to provide me with “tales” to add my “earth-school story”. (I’m sure Donald James is listening and having a terrific laugh since he was the greatest story teller of all times!)

My hope? That by “talking stories” one or two like-minded souls may feel even a small glimmer of optimism that that they are not alone in entering another phase to uncover and discover….what on earth IS this life and earth-school all about!

So where to start?

Being a Type A, somewhat perfection driven individual, I often hear a little voice I’ve dubbed my “shadow self“. It perches on my left shoulder nattering away with things like:

However, another voice has been presenting some new ideas for a very long time, and in the last four years has grown much louder and stronger. It encourages, is kind, is positive and actually makes my heart feel good and I’ve decided to call it my “soul self“.

An invitation has been extended to “shadow self” to take a back seat for a while and leave me with my “soul self” to meander down whatever trail/rabbit hole/experience pops up to be written about in the days//weeks/months ahead.

There is MUCH that has brought me here to this first blog so I think I’ll start with the most significant and recent poke/prod and how it all unfolded. I have been saying “everything’s perfectly on time” for quite awhile now and this too seems to have been “perfectly on time”.

Question: What might I want to be if/when I decide to grow up?

Answer: A Crone (as in wise woman)….in training.

Enter Johann Hari and his book Lost Connections and a seed was planted.

Oops….just realized I need to back up just a wee bit.

I have a mentor in my life who used to tell me….”Marilyn, you just go ahead and sit on that pity pot for as long as you find it necessary. I promise you that a time will come when the ring around your bum will get sore and you’ll decide to get off.” I hate to admit it but that’s where I was when Johann crossed my path. Feeling incredibly sorry for myself and listening to “shadow self“ perform a full rendition of that old ditty…. “nobody likes me, everybody hates me, I’m gonna eat some green, green worms…..” anyone else remember that one?

And this is where Johann’s book reappears. Toward the end of the book this word CONNECTION popped out loud and clear.

I don’t know about you but it seems to me we’ve all been presented with a very different world these past couple of years. There has also been recognition that the resulting isolation has been a strong component of a significant increase in anxiety and depression.

And….voila….here’s where the gift happened. The gift was that I felt compelled to jump up from that pity pot and send a copy of the following reading to a number of my family and friends.

I was actually in awe at what unfolded. I had no idea that my grandchildren might be even slightly interested in establishing a more consistent connection but they responded overwhelmingly that they were…and then…..that little “soul self” asked….Do you think this may be an opportunity? One that opens new doors and new ideas for the next seven generations? (I hope to do a blog on that 7 generation principle)

So…..here it is….the first blog post from The Crone/ Wise Woman (in training).

AND – here’s my hope….

To be a model at creating space for practices that encourage and expand on the development of genuinely caring and kind relationships. It feels like humanity could use a little bit more of that approach. I remain convinced that we’re all “perfectly on time” and now is a perfect time to embrace some new practices.

Thank you to everyone who has taken the time to read and consider these ideas and thoughts. As we all continue walking this journey we signed up for (my belief….doesn’t have to be yours…LOL) may each day be filled with experiences we can view as opportunities. Opportunities to replace some old ideas with some new ones – which may just create a ripple effect that impacts those most in need of some love and kindness.

And….to close – this note from The Universe <[email protected]> on October 12th felt like a nice fit.

Subject: A Note from the Universe ❤️ TUT

You don’t have to take everything so seriously, Marilyn.   Life isn’t black and white, answers aren’t always yes or no, and absolutely nothing has to happen today.   Act when you’re ready. Be led by your feelings. And the next time someone wants to fit you into a box, just tell ’em that your jeans are in the wash, your angels are at the mall, and Oprah’s on the other line.  
Fuzzy as dice, The Universe

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